Yeah. I did that. I didn’t enjoy it, but it had to be done.
The worst part is that it was a character that I really like a lot. But something bad had to happen to her to wrap up a plot point and move the action along. It kinda fucked me up a bit, and I’m still feeling weird about it.
This just goes to show why you should never get too attached to your characters, I suppose. :-
Also, I fully intended to have a 5,000 word day yesterday. I didn’t. I wrote about 2,100 words. Which is OK, considering I haven’t written anything at all since NaNo ended at the end of November. So it was a pretty good day considering that.
I wish that I was the kind of person who could develop a daily writing routine. Sadly, that isn’t my style.
I thrive with NaNoWriMo pressure, but when I’m not in the middle of that, daily life tends to get in my way. For example; since NaNo, I’ve gone through some major changes. I’ve started a new job, got incredibly sick, lost said job, and then got a new one. The new one is extremely painful physically, and that’s been a big theme in my life. On a more positive note, our family grew by 50% when our lovely baby girl moved here from California to be with us. I’ve actually felt guilty about taking time away from her to write.
She’s found a job, however, and I’ve become increasingly aware of my need to find the life path that I feel like I’ve been missing all along. I feel strongly that writing is part of that, and as such, I’ve rededicated myself to my novel. I even have some plans for how to end the thing. I only have about 35K to write before I’m done, and then will probably edit out about 1/5-1/4 of what I’ve written.
Also, Camp NaNoWriMo is coming up in June, and I plan to participate by starting my second novel in the series. I have some vague ideas about what will happen there, but I need to hash it out on paper, maybe even outline this time. We’ll see. At any rate, I will be participating, and winning again. Then again for the second session in August. 🙂
So, the gist is that I’m getting back on track. I need to be able to do what I was meant to do, and I think writing may be it. If I finally get to the place that I can make a living from it, then that daily routine is sure to follow. 🙂