Writing a rape scene

Yeah.  I did that.  I didn’t enjoy it, but it had to be done.

The worst part is that it was a character that I really like a lot.  But something bad had to happen to her to wrap up a plot point and move the action along.  It kinda fucked me up a bit, and I’m still feeling weird about it. 

This just goes to show why you should never get too attached to your characters, I suppose.  :-

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Also, I fully intended to have a 5,000 word day yesterday.  I didn’t.  I wrote about 2,100 words.  Which is OK, considering I haven’t written anything at all since NaNo ended at the end of November.  So it was a pretty good day considering that. 

Back in the saddle again..

I wish that I was the kind of person who could develop a daily writing routine.  Sadly, that isn’t my style. 

I thrive with NaNoWriMo pressure, but when I’m not in the middle of that, daily life tends to get in my way.  For example; since NaNo, I’ve gone through some major changes.  I’ve started a new job, got incredibly sick, lost said job, and then got a new one.  The new one is extremely painful physically, and that’s been a big theme in my life.  On a more positive note, our family grew by 50% when our lovely baby girl moved here from California to be with us.  I’ve actually felt guilty about taking time away from her to write.

She’s found a job, however, and I’ve become increasingly aware of my need to find the life path that I feel like I’ve been missing all along.  I feel strongly that writing is part of that, and as such, I’ve rededicated myself to my novel.  I even have some plans for how to end the thing.  I only have about 35K to write before I’m done, and then will probably edit out about 1/5-1/4 of what I’ve written. 

Also, Camp NaNoWriMo is coming up in June, and I plan to participate by starting my second novel in the series.  I have some vague ideas about what will happen there, but I need to hash it out on paper, maybe even outline this time.  We’ll see.  At any rate, I will be participating, and winning again.  Then again for the second session in August.  🙂

So, the gist is that I’m getting back on track.  I need to be able to do what I was meant to do, and I think writing may be it.  If I finally get to the place that I can make a living from it, then that daily routine is sure to follow.  🙂