In my last post, I vented about all the things that went horribly, horribly wrong last year. And there was a lot. It seemed neverending at times.
However, I truly am an optimist. I tend towards stupid optimism, even. Even when I get truly depressed and feel victimized, I usually come back around and start looking at what I can do differently to better my life. I also tend towards a little depression/introversion/introspection in January, so this is when all of my plans begin gestating.
- FINISH MY DAMN NOVEL! This has been 3 years in the making, and it’s time to write those last 30K words and just finish it. It’s aching to be finished. It’s actually kinda good in some ways, and will be better once I finish it and edit it. It needs to be born.
- Make kyphi, and begin selling my incense.
- Stay spiritual. At the very least, light a candle every full moon.
- Lose at least 50 lbs in 2013, more is better. It’s definitely time that we get back into healthy eating. For Bear’s health, for my health, for J and Little J’s health. We all need to be healthy.
- Find a different second job. I’ve been working at my parents’ shop for 18 years now, and it drives me absolutely insane. I need to do something that doesn’t involve my family in any way whatsoever in order to save my sanity.
- Take a trip. Anywhere. Even an overnighter a few hours away. I need to go somewhere SO badly. I get itchy when I don’t travel for a while, and it’s just time.
I’m sure that I’ll come up with more later, but for now, these are the biggies. I also want to remember to tell Bear how much I love him as often as possible, and make more time for us to be romantic together.
Things I’m obsessed with right now:
- The idea of using an oil diffuser as an incense stove/burner. There are really expensive Japanese incense stoves that retail for $300+, but I can’t see why an oil diffuser with an adjustable temp would be any different. The idea is that when you add powdered incense to smouldering charcoal, it burns too quickly, is too smoky, and then the bitter burny smell lingers. Also, the self-igniting charcoal that most people use has a scent of its own, so it’s tough to gauge the actual scent of your incense. With a diffuser, the incense is warmed gently, and you get to experience the full range of the scent without the charcoal smell or the scorched herb smell.
- Starting my own . J gave me a video camera for my bday, and I’m stoked to set it up and start using it.
- Little J, our little darling. She’s part cross-dresser, part little, part submissive, and completely lovely. She gives me hope.